booo

back.

i LOVE my hometown. alot of pics but left my fon downstairs so today its 3.55am nao i jz do something random. the melaka river has many dead monitor lizards floating around. it is very sad. i wish to do something about it. hate feeling helpless.

i hate my hair. it looks like pubic hair trying to be hair but only jadi halfway so its semi pubic hair HAHAHA i am so disgusting. plus, its so thick. so its always in a bun. so you idiots, if you want to lepak with crystal gan, must call ok!!!!!! dont suddenly pop up in front of my doorstep.

bcuz if you ring my doorbell and i happen to answer the door we will look at each other like dis O_O for two minutes and then you will ask if crystal gan is at home.

THAT IS HOW DIFFERENT I LOOK AT HOME!!!!!!! plus specs.

and my spec is no ordinawy spec!!!!!


this is the spec that maintain my eyesight at 200 for one year EL O EL.

plus i actually wear pyjamas and walk around the house like (-_-") the whole day lol.

SO IF YOU WANTO LEPAK GIVE ME A CALL!!! AT LEAST GIVE ME A CHANCE TO WASH MY HAIR!!!! HAHAHAAHAH.

i jz found out something about teenagers nowadays. WE ARE ALL MADE OUT OF SHIT. we only know how to enjoy, bcuz thats all our parents give us. we have all the time in the world to do some good learn some crap for this holidays but what are we doing?

1) wearing pyjamas and walking around like (-_-") around the house everyday wtf
2) complaining about the reopening of school to anyone who is equally lifeless
3) being online the whole day and getting excited when there is like one notification on facebook bcuz it means somebody is talking to you and acknowledging your existance which is now equivalent to an ant
4) go outttt have funnn have some more funnnn get wastedddd and think you're so coooooool cuz u are nao pukinggg down a toiletttt coz of alcoholll so coooooooooooool

maybe YOUUU think its okay to rot and hang around until school reopeens. but not me. not crystal gaaaaaaaan!!!!!! NOT ANYMORE AT LEAST!!!!!!!!

I WILL :-

1. learn how to play CHERRY BLOSSOM TIME- KOTARO OSHIO on the guitar HAHAHAHA. im laffing bcuz i don even know how to play the guitar. i always said i will marry anyone who can play that song on the guitar for me cuz it is too damn good and i never get bored of it in fact i want it at my wedding/baby shower/funeral. T_T since im not into gettin any guy to play tat for me for now and want to marry myself, so i think, why not i learn myself. so yah, i want to learn guitar!!! by the end of this holidays, i will at least know how to strum. or something. lol. heee.

2. compose a song! HAHAHAHAHAHA. all i do is listen to songs on the radio and if i like them i play them back on the piano! i feel like trying something new... lol.. and if i really get the balls, i will post it up... HAHAHAHA....

3. LEARN A LANGUAGE!!!! LEARN SOME KOREAN!!!! lol. you ppl dont potong my stim by saying KENOT ONE LA!!!!!!! bcuz i haf determination. and time. since i finished prince of persia the ps2 game. until i buy the next prince of persia i will learn korean!! lol.

4. lose some weight....... haih...... damn sad. i was so skinny last time now im jz a big ball of fats.. dam sad!!!!! so nao i swim. but wats the point?! if after swimming i eat like... haih.. anyways jz lose some weight laa...

5. stop cursing.... HAHAHAAHAHA...

omg my mum jz caught me being online at 4am!!!!!!!!! ALL SHE DID WAS STARE AT ME LOL FOR LIKE A FEW SECS AND THEN WENT INTO THE TOILET HAHAHAA.... SHE LOOKED QUITE STONED I FELT LIKE TAKING A PICTURE HAHAHAHAA

hello! i, crystal gan ai wen, will now stop bein the queen of denial. i have a habit of NOT acknowledging the past or people from the past bcuz 1)i hate it 2) my ego too big dont like to admit they managed to hurt me 3) want to forget but most of the time end up remembering the most





and i miss school lol aint school entertaining HAHAHAHAA


love my ear *O*


this is the only time i camwhored when i studied for pmr.

and tis was b4 extra class mr brian tuition science HAHA.

dam hardcore. nvr came online at all. the first thing after school is book, book after book! even if i went out for dinner i would drag a book with me. toilet, walk the dog, etc. and i would get dam agitated at myself if i were to fall asleep lol jialat.

so if i dont get straight As, really, _|_ to the very max...

no matter how shitty the education system of our country we must abide to it bcuz!!!!! we are currently in the dam country lol. and believe it or not, i actually enjoyed the whole studying process!!! HAHAHAA. felt lost after the stupid exam ok!!! HAHAHA.

i am constantly being exposed to the things i can never obtain grrrrrrrrrr makes me mad. i need a brighttttttttt futureeeeee, big big house, big big farrrrrrrm.

4.30am!!!!!!!!!

OMG IM THE MOST LIFELESS TEENAGER HAIH

sayo to the nara!

random.....

"WAH YOU WENT SWIMMING ALONE AH? SO SCARY!!!!!!" - words of a girl who lives under a rock. ( ANGELA LIM )

anyways wtf i just TRIED to read my previous post it was very hard to read like WAHHH everything was jumbled up suddenly nasi goreng suddenly porn suddenly oscar its like i dun even get wat im tryin to say lol..

do you? *O*

SO HUNGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ITS 3.05AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i went swimming again today HAHAAHAHA I LIKE


AFTER SWIMMING HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA

yes lol everything.

then came home to laksa, tau fu fa, tong sui dan sebagainya..

IM THE FIRST ONE IN HISTORY TO GAIN WEIGHT AFTER EXERCISE. pukitiao. cannot resist saying tat cuz it sounds so vulgar and cute. BOO HON WAI POLLUTED ME!!!!!! pukitiao

anyways i dont like guys who call girls bitch U_U! have i said this before? i somehow kenot stand it!!! even for a person whose vocabulary is so flowery and cute like mine. its like, guys who do that, they do not respect the girl. in a very scary way. but somehow when girls call each other that its like BFF TOGETHER FOREVER TOTALLY SPIES GIRLFRIEND XOXO U KNOW U LOVE ME GOSSIP GIRL kind of thing u know?

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just my opinion.

weirdddddd. do you know how to manipulate words? if you do, life would be an easierrrrr place for youuuuuuuuuu.


i jz found this photo wtf i look so stoned

freaking stoned.

LOOK DAM CHINESE RITE!!!!!!!

MATA SEPET HIDUNG MUNCUNG MULUT ITIK!!! ^_^VV


MY TEDDY SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DOES HE NOT REMIND YOU OF THE TEDDY FROM MR BEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I GO SLEEP CUZ I SERIOUSLY DAM TIRED I ACTUALLY FELL ASLEEP JZ NOW WHILE SURFING NET IN DAD'S OFFICE WHILE PLAYING HAPPY AQUARIUM..

GAN OUTSIDE MADAFACKA

SWIMMING MAKES ME HAPPY!!!!

SO TUESDAY!!!!!!!!!!! GOD TOOK AWAY MY INTERNET CONNECTION while i was loading my movies/taiwanese drama/korean drama/ peter chao etc. -__-!! but i could still play bejewelled blitz on facebook dam weird how come.

i was being damn hysterical started screaming hee hee cuz i am an attention deprived child. NOT. bcuz life suddenly became meaningless!!!! AT LEAST MY BROTHER COULD STUDY CUZ HE WAS HAVIN EXAMS!!!!!!! i could do nothing wtf. bcuz, everybody knows, i dont use my phone. i dont text, i dont call. i oni text/call when neccessary. bcuz 1) radiation. 2) i hate text messaging bcuz i tend to wait for replies and dont reply them and then ppl end up hating me cuz they dont get my reply wtf

and i dont really watch tv. cuz computer IS tv. HAHAHAHAHA

omg i sound so lifeless. so i decided to go swimming on wednesday!!!!!!!!! GUGUGAGA

wanted to sleep early on tuesday cuz in order to go swimming, i hafta wake up early to follow dad to office cuz kiara club is around there.... DAMANSARA ^_^!!! but i slept at 3 bcuz i woke up at 2 wtf.

why did i sleep so late? was busy watching porn downstairs HAHAHAHAA NOLAH!!! was watching THE READER. YOU UNDERAGE DONT WATCH OKEH!!!! kate winslet dam saggy wtf. but uh. great performance!!! OSCAR OKAY. lolol

ANYWAYS I AM SO DAM CURIOUS ABOUT THAT MOVIE TEETH ADMA TOLD ME ABOUT. ITS ABOUT A VAGINA WITH TEETH HAHAHAHA. "YOU RAPE ME, I BITE YOU!!!" PENETRATE PENETRATE MUNCH. FREAKING WEIRD. AWARD WINNING OK!!!! THE AWARD WINNING VAGINA!!!! HAHAHAAHHAHAA YEE SEEN I NO U LIKE!!!!

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anylalalahoos.

reached club at 10am. swam until 1pm. HAHAHAHAHHAHAA SEMANGAT WARRIOR SEJATI!!!!! breast stroke sana free style balik. i felt like a free breast HAHAHAHAHA. GEDDIT? BREAST STROKE + FREESTYLE = FREE BREAST -_- wtf.

anyways dam kiasu la couldnt stop bcuz in the lane beside mine, this guy swimming to and fro NON STOP FOR LIKE, 50 LAPS OK. TERPEGUN TAHAP MATA BERKILAU. AND WHEN HE FINALLY GOT UP. OLD MAN WTF. SURE LIBIDO DAM HIGH HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

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lalalalala finished showering



walked all the way to clubhouse for nasi pataya :D

started raining -____________-

plus i was running in circles cuz i didnt know where was the tempat makan di bowling sana dengan nasi pataya yang amat sedap kerana saya terlupa...............

anyways. i made it after some time -_-

waitin for my pataya :D

DO YOU IZ LIKE ME NAILS?

read.....

nasi pataya takin a shitload of time...........


let me teach you how to drink coke sadly


!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and then after that i had serious stomach ache HAHAHAHAA. while payin for the rice i was aching to go to the toilet YES CHARGE ON ACCOUNT LA STUPID WOMAN HOW MANY TIMES DO I NEED TO SAY?????????????????

had a good time in the toilet before my dad picked me up HAHAHHAHAA

then went to dad's office hyperventilated and went online for a while then dad brought me to sunway pyramid to buy pants bcuz he says i am embarassing him. WHAT IS WRONG WITH FLOWERY SHORTS LA WTF.

then he passed me to mum who works in sunway =O then he went to dinner with some german doods. then i ate paste with mum. then mum ignored me while we ate pasta. then i continued talking to myself.


then i took a random pic when mum was tryin on clothes

then we went home

then i went to sleep

END.

IM SORRY, BUT, I HAVE TO SAY THIS.

I WANT TO WATCH NEW MOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and fck you people, dont you dare call my cellphone, my house phone my whatever phone, my fathers phone when im in the house even. MULTIPLE TIMES.

CUZ I DONT LIKE THE SOUND OF RINGING OK???????????????????? FCK YOU PEOPLE MAN. IT MAKES ME... FEEL.. IMMENSELY.. DISTURBED.

oh yah adma i was wearing ur shirt again sorry!!!!!!!! cuz it was the oni one downstairs and i had to be fast cuz i woke up late!!! so i jz grabbed it!!! LOVE YOU TOO ADMA!!!

OKAY! RAINBOWS AND UNICORNS!!!! BYE!!!!!

BOOOO!!!!!!

take a look at my header! ITS DIFFERENT! GUGUGAGA!!!!

if you are in it, congratulations! I LOVE YOU!!!!!

been swimming alone lately to and fro to and fro. no pause. no thoughts. just movement.

first it was hard. it took awhile for me to gain momentum.

guess you become what you practise.

i hate november 15th. REALLY, I DO.

"My sister's keeper" is killing me!!!! LITERALLY RIPPING ME APART. i am so emotional sometimes i scare myself. if i see two squirrels playing in the park i could get emotional bcuz it is so cute. i also get emotional bcuz nowadays, i dont really see butterflies around. do you notice? THERE ARE NO MORE BUTTERFLIES!!!! JUST MOTHS?!!?!?!!! and dragonflies too. where. are. they!!!

MY TURTLE IS ALRIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG I AM TURNING INTO... TAT EMO THING. TAT EMO THING WHO BLOGS AH!!!!!! HAHAHAAHAHA LAU CHIA SING HELP ME!!!!!

anyways not really appropriate for me to blog rite now its 5AM ^_^!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY MUM WILL MURDER ME IF SHE WAKES UP. bcuz she jz educated me on the importance of sleep. i assured her i get at least 11 hours of sleep a day. she says "HELLO GIRL. ITS NOT THE HOURS. ITS THE TIMING??????????? AND WAT TIME DO YOU GO TO SLEEP? SEVEN???" no ma, just six. wtf

i have alot to say!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY. i think im ready to put it in words!!!!!!! AND!!!! PICTURES!!!! STUPID FON DOWNSTAIRS I AM LAZY!!!!

my fon is so retarded right now there is nothing no one can do to help. i jz pray hope wish with all my heart i got straight As for pmr. then ill ask for an iPhone ^_^!!!! despite the fact that they are exploding all over the world.

MY MAID HAS A NEW FON. HOW? MY MAID IS ALWAYS ON THE FON. I HATE IT WHEN SHE IS TOKING ON THE FON AND ACTING LIKE I KENOT HEAR HER. BCUZ HELLO???????? I CAN HEAR YOU. AND I DON LIKE WAT I HEAR. AND NO. I HATE HOW UR SO CALLED BOYFRIEND LOOKS LIKE. HE LOOKS LIKE A SEX MANIAC.

ANYWAYS.

swimming alone = crystal gan happy = world peace ^_^

AND EDWARD BOO HON WAI I KNOW YOU ARE ABC123 IN MY CBOX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU LIE YOUR BALLS WILL FALL OFF.

eh. no balls to fall off in the first place..

too bad so sad....

WHY AM I THE KIND OF PERSON WHO GETS ATTACHED TO EVERY INDIVIDUAL/THING THAT I HAVE MADE CONTACT WITH?!!?!!?!

THAT MAKES ME VULNERABLE. IF YOU WERE TO STEAL MY SHORTS OR HURT MY DOG I WOULD GO HYSTERICAL. btw my dog is damn fat now rolling all over the place OMG WHY IS IT SO FAT?!?!!?!

if we have breathed the same air, and you were to vanish from this world, i would feel insanely distressed. thank you.

the atmosphere today was horrific. glad i got to catch a last glimpse of him.. and i wish with all my heart his parents would recover from this tragedy. but then again, death has a way of changing things forever. doesnt it?

especially if it happened twice.

its amazing how an event can alter the lives of certain people forever, while others remain oblivious to its effect.

woke up to devastating news.

it just hit me. even I might die tomorrow. why let a minute past thinking of the what ifs? why choose to fill your heart with sadness, when you know, happiness is a choice?

RIP..

miss you, we will

:D

Personality type : ENFP

outgoing, social, disorganized, easily talked into doing silly things, spontaneous, wild and crazy, acts without thinking, good at getting people to have fun, pleasure seeking, irresponsible, physically affectionate, risk taker, thrill seeker, likely to have or want a tattoo, adventurous, unprepared, attention seeking, hyperactive, irrational, loves crowds, rule breaker, prone to losing things, seductive, easily distracted, open, revealing, comfortable in unfamiliar situations, attracted to strange things, non punctual, likes to stand out, likes to try new things, fun seeker, unconventional, energetic, impulsive, empathetic, dangerous, loving, attachment prone, prone to fantasy

favoured careers :

performer, actor, entertainer, songwriter, musician, filmmaker, comedian, radio broadcaster/dj, some job related to theater/drama, poet, music journalist, work in fashion industry, singer, movie producer, playwright, bartender, comic book author, work in television, dancer, artist, record store owner, model, freelance artist, teacher (art, drama, music), writer, painter, massage therapist, costume designer, choreographer, make up artist

disfavored careers:

data analyst, scientist, researcher, financial advisor, business analyst, govt employee, office manager, mathematician, investment banker, office worker, computer tech, it professional, network engineer, strategist

ITS 5.21AM!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAAHAAHAHA. I WOKE UP AT 2.12AM 8D

GOODBYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FULL POST MEHBEH TOMOROOO? OKEHHHHH? OKEHHHHHH.

CHIA SING = THINKER. PUIK!!!! CRYSTAL GAN = INSPIRER = WORLD PEACE

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